Well I think I have a few minutes while Ava entertains herself in her Winnie the Pooh walker and watches Baby Einstein. That is probably very poor parenting but she’s enjoying herself so whatever.
Ava is doing great she is about 14 lbs and growing, she rolls from front to back and back to front and can sit for a few seconds unassisted. Her favorite toy is the white crinkly wrapper from a package of saltines. Yeah I know very bad parenting. I love my new job as mommy.
OK here is the bad news, I became really ill after Ava was born. It really got the worst when I tried to go back to work. For those who don’t know I have a condition called PCOS(Polly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome) which sounds like it would be simply an ovarian thing right, very wrong. Well the symptoms really vary from one preson to the next if you have a mild case usually there aren’t many symptoms other than ovarian ones. Well lucky me I have the severe kind here is a list of my symptoms, warning I am baring some rather embarrassing things here…
Extreme weight gain and it’s almost impossible to lose without medication (I will go into detail further down)
excessive hair in odd places
infertilty
major hormone imbalances that caused anxiety attacks, extreme sweating and major depression/bordering on suicidal
Pseudo Tumor Ceribri( a very interesting condition where your cerebral spinal sac-the sac around your brain and spinal chord- doesn’t drain the fluid off of your brain but continues to produce the fluid thus causing extreme pressure in the brain and on the optic nerve, to releive the pressure numerous spinal taps are required) sounds like fun huh? This is supposedly unconnected but I know too many with PCOS who also have this condition. It was supposed to get better as I lost weight, but thus far has only gotten worse.
Insulin Resistance-(from Wikipedia)Insulin resistance is the condition in which normal amounts of insulin are inadequate to produce a normal insulin response from fat, muscle and liver cells. Insulin resistance in fat cells results in hydrolysis of stored triglycerides, which elevates free fatty acids in the blood plasma. Insulin resistance in muscle reduces glucose uptake whereas insulin resistance in liver reduces glucose storage, with both effects serving to elevate blood glucose. High plasma levels of insulin and glucose due to insulin resistance often lead to metabolic syndrome and type 2 diabetes. In other words it makes you fat!
Then there was light, I had been told I had this for years but either they didn’t know how to treat it or they just didn’t care to tell me but finally I found one that helped me.
I was started on a glucose medication called Metformin ER just Met to my PCOS friends, I went on Atkins and was finally healthy enough to start exercising. Talk about a 360, I lost extreme weight 115lbs to be exact, This medication was a miracle for me and everybody who cared about me. Besides the weight my mental health increased exponentially. Well anyways after fertilty treatments and a miscarriage. We have our little one.
OK now fast forward to right before Ava’s birth. It seems so simple, I got a refill prescription for my Met, but somewhere someone didn’t pay attention to what they were doing and I was given metformin as apposed to metformin ER, who would have thought there would be such a difference well there was. I started having trouble after Ava was born but I chalked it up to post pregnancy hormones there were quite a few different signs for one thing I had a heck of a time keeping my milk supply up(very typical of PCOS), I couldn’t lose any weight even though I was nursing and even though I was walking 3 miles a day 6 days a week I would lose 6lbs then gain it right back and the Depression/Anxiety attacks came back full force as well as seizures.
When Ava was about 4 months something clicked, the details are long and pointless but my medicine was finally figured out and things are finally moving in the right direction. I’m finally feeling better and I’ve lost 10 of the 40 lbs I gained and I’m not gaining it back yeah!
Well I have to leave off here mommyhood is calling well screaming!
I love you all.
Well here we are at almost 39 weeks and I can barely contain myself, it’s not that I am anxious to not be pregnant, I am just so ready to hold her and kiss her and show her how much she is wanted, appreciated, and loved! 
